Glory
I have to remind myself daily that this project isn’t about what I can do. This visual counting of gifts can often feel like it has to be contrived. Just like everything else when it come to walking with God. It’s not about my efforts, but about receiving him. Why do I always lean into my own strength and not into God’s? Daily I have to lay it down again. Every day.
But today, I hit the wall. I felt so tired. My work is piling up and my house is growing a layer of dust that is beginning to scare me. I can’t keep up. I just wanted to go to bed when I got home this afternoon. I just wanted to sleep. The thought of having to do another post for this project weighed heavily on me along with client requests. My pastor Kevin Myers would say this is the B zone. It is the place that sits squarely between the beginning of a project (the promising A zone) and the successful completion of one (C zone celebration time). Of course there is always the Q zone (quit) which knocks us out of the race entirely. I was hovering around the Q zone today. I was just tired.
But then I looked up. How did I miss this before? The skies stretched over me like a canopy full of clouds and glory. As the air filled my lungs, I spun around in wonder at the sight of them. And then came the exhale. Carbon dioxide mixed with worry and dissipated into the atmosphere. I found my smallness again under the looming splendor on my little country road. Isn’t striving really just self-importance cloaked in socially acceptable language? It’s not about me at all. Yes! What a relief! In gratitude I am right-sized and held in his strong but gentle hands.
The boundary lines were once again in pleasant places.
One more day trusting that God is enough. One more day learning that indeed he is and infinitely more.
Psalm 16:6 ~”The boundary lines have fallen for me in pleasant places; surely I have a delightful inheritance.”
Hebrews 11:6 ~”And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.”
Finding my Smallness
Country Road
Looming Splendor
Pleasant Places
6 Comments
Let me just say – I LOVE COMING TO YOUR BLOG EVERY DAY! I feel like a little stalker because I peek in, get perked up and go my merry way. It’s so simple and refreshing for me. And I know the simplest things are often the hardest. So thank you so much for the time you take and the talent you share. It’s rather inspiring! BUT having said that, no ones life will stall if you miss a day or so. I don’t want to soften your resolve – but I do want to free you up. Only a day or so, though, because it think you are on a mission from God. Just know you are appreciated!
…a quiet and heart felt…ditto…to all that Lisa has said. 🙂 thank you!
Me, too, me, too! Thank you for this glory this morning, marking one full week of feeling flu-yucky. Made my whole week.
We all need “reminders” …….. they are all around us! Thanks for sharing. I love Ann Voskamp’s book “One Thousand Gifts”.
Blessings
Ditto to everything Lisa said!!
Good to see you. I’ve missed you. Simple profound elegant and inspiring❣️ That’s you.